4months

Happy 4 months be.

i love you.

ps. I <3 Wii Fit!

Lent

So went to mass last night for Ash Wednesday of course. All the while thinking of what I should give up for lent. Father Conrad starts his Homily and asked everyone what they were giving up for Lent. People start yelling out "cookies, candy, soda, chocolate..." and yeah. Then he says "Oh k, I say to you, NO! EAT more Candy, drink more soda eat all the chocolate you can. For all of those things are superficial!" I go...huh. Then he goes on to say "instead of giving up, give more. Take time out of your day to promote more time to prayer, to helping others, to being more like Jesus's example." In others words, give up some of your time to being a better person, is how i see it anywaise.

SO, for this lent of 2009, I give up some of my time to reading the Bible an hour everyday and prayer at least twice a day. I only pray once a day, and have never read the Bible my whole life. I think it's time for me to become a more faithful person. Which in turn, i believe will make me a better person.



It's been a little while since I've updated. But i've been goood. My current goal is to get a job as a CNA or Nurse Tech at Madigan in whatever clinic will take me. And i need help building my resume!! lol. School is the most stressful it's ever been for me. And I'm sooo scared that i won't make it into nursing school. I really, will freak the f*ck out if i dont get in...*siiigh. And in the midst of my grieving and pessimism. lol, DAN calls me! =] Tells me a joke made me feel a little better. But, I miss him. Has been 28 days since he's been gone and tommorrow will be our 4 months. I'm sending him a package. So if ANYONE is reading this, give me a card or something so i could send it to him. lol. TONKS. haha. Right now I'm so SORE! cause i've been working out. but man, does it feel freakin good lol. Goin to the gym tommorrow. Tryin to get bigger before Dan gets home. lol.

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Pier 1

So he called again. Three days in a row. He really does make me happy. I'm not forcing it, it's not artificial, i'm not fooling myself in makin believe that these feelings are real. It IS real. I find myself trying to looks at all the flaws and I always am pessimistic and look at the bad before the good. But even the bad couldn't out weight the good. That feeling is back. And i don't ever want it to go away. I sound CRAZY! But i don't really care. lol. I'm truly blessed to have him in my life. Even if this isn't meant to last forever, I'm thankful for having the experiences and feelings that I have felt and experienced with him. I want an adventure for a life, and with him there's always something new to experience and to overcome even. I have an adventure with him and I only want it to continue. It may not be forever, but I'm going to try and make it last as long as it can.

This is different for me. I was always the person to be like, forever or nothing. And in a sense I still am like that. But now, I'm actually learning to live in the present rather then the past or worrying about the future. And as much as it shouldn't be, it is hard for me. But i'm still learning, and with him the experiences is that much better. I truly am thankful for him. And I love him with all that I got.

BUT ENOUGH of the gooshy-mushyness.
I went to Pier 1 and saw a couple cute things

Corny valentine's day card I saw. Do you get it?? it says "You are here" and then "You need to be here" haha...

Dan's Vietnamese name. "Theo" lol.

Cool table I saw. Very colorful, i thought it was cool beans.

fallen in love

Thursdays

i love thursdays, has always been my favorite day.
Grey's Anatomy tonight. =] and ABDC. yeee...

but i miss him. been 8 days

DENNY'S

So there's a free for all at Denny's today. Free Grand Slam for all of America. Cool beans. I was too lazy to go though lol.

I wanna watch this movie! If you know me, you'll know why. lol



He called again today. =] Goodness, I love his voice. I know weird huh, considering his accent. lol. Felt good to actual update him on the phone and hearing his reactions and stuff. He's still sick, which concerns me. But he said he's ok, all i can do is just pray. Ever since he's been gone I've had a lot of free time sooo...i wanan start volunteering again. So now I'm going to volunteer to be a Big Sister and I have an interview on tuesday. I'm excited and a little nervous, and i dunno why lol. But hopfully it will be a good experience. And I'm starting to work out, which btw, I'm hella sore from but that's a good sign. yee...I miss him so much though. It's weird when people ask if I'm going to wait for him or not, i thought it would be a given that I would. So i dunno, that's such an akward question. And I love to ramble on. lol. But yee...gotta cram now. woo hoo =/

THINGS TO DO

A list on goals I want to do the next four months:

-Volunteer at least twice a week at McChord Clinic
-Become a Big Sister for Big brother and big sister
-Cook at least once a week; learn to make a new dish a week
-Work out at least three times a week
-Start scrapbooking

not too extensive, but we shall see

Day 4

They say distance makes a heart grow fonder. And i must say, i agree.
He called me today! =] yeeeee. I'm so in love with him.
Seriously, no other person has ever made me feel the way that he does. oooo...it's amazing!

I have the mushy gooshy feeling with him. It's surreal, it's crazy. Granted, he does piss me off hella, lol, but at least he's himself with me. And overall he's just an amazing person. I'm so BLESSED and grateful for him, I can't even express that enough. I can honestly say that I'm myself with him. I don't have to act to impress him, he's natrually impressed and in love with me, for who i truly am. And i love how he never makes me bored. lol. He always has me on my toes. And he's so fun to be around. Never a dull moment, i swear, and i love it! =]

I feel like a little kid. I feel like I sound so stupid too. lol. But i don't care. I know I haven't had a good relationship record and people may look down on me for it. But in the end, i don't care what others think, cause they have never been in my shoes and they don't know how i feel. And really, all that matters is my own happiness and imma do what makes me happy. And all I know right now, is that being with him and knowing that he loves me too, is my ultimate happiness.

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