3 missed calls

I just missed his phonecalls. And he left a voicemail...sounded upset/disappointed. =[ gahh...i'm so bummed right now. Cause he feels sad and cause i missed his phone calls. I'm probably overreacting right now, but I miss him like crazy and am so sad right now.

I can't wait for him to come home and to finally jump inot his arms again and hear him say I love you. And to take naps with him in his barracks, and to go to the PX to eat nasty ass Koiboit food, and to plan trips that sound amzing knowing that we both can't do them any time soon, and talkin bout history, and coming to my house to watch a movie that HE wants to watch and then HE falls asleep...I miss those little things. I sound CRAZY! it's only been 40 days. And i have at least 4 months to go. I just don't think i'm cut out for this whole waiting thing.

Words of wisdom from a good friend of mine reminded me to stay strong cause he needs to not worry about me. So I'm gonna try even harder. Never thought it would be this hard, never thought i loved him THIS much. I think I miss him so much more because i got use to seeing him everyday after school even for just an hour. And that part of my day isn't filled with him. And I would complain to him about everything, and he'd probably be thinkin in his head, shut up! lol. No but, I miss knowing I will be able to vent to someone everyday like I did.

Just gotta wait some odd more months until I could feel whole again [soo corny, but true]. I love that boy, more then I probably should. And I know that it was random and unexpected, but aren't those moments and people the best? I think so. And people may think he's just another one of those boys I'm with, but he's never been "one of those boys". Everyother boy was. But not him. And i can say that with complete truthfullness and confidence. I love him, i love him i love him i love him...bleeh...gross!