Overwhelmed

GAHH! I'm so freakin stressed right now.
My future is looking more and more farther and harder now a days. And my pessimestic mentality is not helping me calm down or have any more hope. So it's looking like I have to wait until winter of 2010 til i could POSSIBLY get into a nursing school...it's not even a gurantee. omg! eff my life. My inspiration and self-motivation is shot.
But, assface is helpin me get my ish together and my mother's controlling ways is inspiring me to get released as soon as i can from her grasp...the only way i could do that is get my degree, and get my own place and be indpendent for once. That freedom...seems so far away and never-reaching! And i can't stand it!!!! Lord help me. pleaaase....

BUT, on the brighter side.
This weekend was loverly. =]
Saturday went on a walk at frontier park and discovered new terrains over there. Like, there's a go-kart place there and i never knew that the whole 14 years I've lived next to the park. lol. Saw some big ol hourse doo doo. haha. Then did some family business and ate at King Wok Buffet was kinda nasty but whateva. Boyfriend made a fool of himself tryin to out stack my cousin's and aunt's ice cream swirling. lol. And we played a game that i HATE. gahh', but there's a first time for everything i guess. Then came home, watched a movie of course and TRIED to figure out how to make Dark Knight work, but we didn't. But the next morning went to IHOP with our best friends, Jordan and Sarah. Pretty damn good. Niggas was jealous of us though cause we know how to keep ourselves entertained wherever we go. Aka, everywhere's our living room?? lol. But seriously who goes to a reasturant by themselves. the eff right? But anywaise. Ending up goin to Hustler Hollywood, discovered what an effin freak my boyfriend really is. NASTY! And that pornos can cost up to 60 bucks. jeebus. Then raised havock at Wal-Mart, but not really, that place made us sleepy haha. Headed home, tried to make chopper and chanel have babies, didn't work. Chopper's got no game. Then watched dark knight with the S Cable hunny buns bought for me. yeeee...He spends his money too much. Geezz...gotta start makin an expense book for him fo'realz. But yeaaah...twas a good weekend. =] Thanks to my honey buns. But then reality is settlin again and the control that my mother is tryin to have upon me, is driving me CRAZY! I need to have a break soon from this place. TOKYO HERE I COME!